Insane
I've gone insane.
I've become ultra protective of my block, my friends.
I've misunderstood my dearest.
I've done it again.
I've lost myself.
I've a bad feeling...
-Treasure every single moment in life-
I've gone insane.
Been blogging a lots recently. Guess I have lots things on my mind. Somehow I just don't know how to put it into words. Yow is checking out of KR tml to embark a new 4 months experience in US. Will definitely miss him as a block head, friend and senior.
Warning: R21
A mail from QY to the rest of the block...
I can never get things right...
Really feel blessed to good friends around. Encouragements and words of concerns from some of my friends over the past few days. Thank you Ken, Alvin, Jinrui, tootall, just to name a few, to have given me some form of encouragements and moltivations. I am really blessed to have you guys as friends.
Things are not going the way I want it. I want to achieve so much but am limited by so many. Lost on court, lost in spirit, lost in attitude. Lost in confidence, filled with jealousy. Perhaps, I am just at war with myself again.
I am truly disgusted with the all IBG...there are too many things to mention...not in the mood to write them all. I can only say I am really disgusted by the whole thing. I am seriously thinking of withdrawing from hall...
In pain...
Arg...
Really think I have a pyschotic problem...
Sian tiao...My mentor is an Ah Neh...V Subramaniam....argh!!!
Haha... Just spoke to tootall over msn. Mentioned about regrets. Regrets over not doing something to the block or hall. I know I will regret. That's for sure. I have lots of regrets in my life. From not going after my ex when she stepped out of the restaurant to signing on then to not failing my officer course on purpose. Not knowing how to reject ppl, which always ended me on the suffering end. All these have made me stronger or perhaps more sceptical about taking up offers or positions. Yes, ppl have all the faith in me. But sadly, I've no more faith in myself. Not when I can't do well in my studies even though I've tried hard. Maybe I will feel shitty when the new captain takes over the ship and have a fruitful journey and experience. Maybe I will gloat when I see the captain suffers. But I know I will never be the evil one who just enjoy myself on the deck of the ship. For sure, I will offer my helping hands despite with jealousy.
Haiz...
It's funny how some Ather block is copying the trend of having a common name at the front of their msn nicks...chey lack of originality and taste. At least C block has some funky in their name. And Boo to those who bragged about their talents so arrogantly. We didn't even bragged about ours last year. At least I didn't do that and I didn't hear my seniors bragging about our good batch of year 1s. Best spirit block...I am not going let you win anything from Eguanas forest. At least not when I am around!
It has been a great week for me. Things were smooth and happy for jL and me. Been able to work things out and improve our relationship further. Caught Charlie and the Chocolate Factory with jL and her family. Fun movie with freaky characters and superb story plot.
Life is definitely better with an understanding gf around.
A day not to forget. We won the best flag day collection. Lost out on the Chancellor shield but we won in spirit. At least I enjoyed cheering and singing in the scorching afternoon sun.
Ok, I think I am really siao on with the rag rush. But as I was sharing with my thoughts to fellow block mates just now. If it wasn't for mingui and kendrick and other friends in the RAG team, I wouldn't be working so late for RAG. Hantu was saying we are 60 percent near full completion for the float...is that a good news or bad? I mean with barely a day left and 60 percent done...
Fwoc is coming to an end. Must say the freshmen this year is superb! They are more siao on than my batch of intake. FLAG was a success. Both for KR and E block. We won the GOLD award and E block got the most amount of collection among the other blocks! RAG is in two days time. Quite worried that the float can't be completed in time. But judging the amount of help given by the freshmen, I am optimistic we can do it!
jL, I don't know whether you would have the time to read this. Just want to tell you to hang on there and stay strong for the week k. Weekend will be here in no time and RAG will be over!