Nice article (haha)

Haha I know this is against copyright law! But I don't care! Faith, once again I've cut and pasted your entry to my blog! Don't think you would mind ya (still don't think you know about my blog yet =P) So here it is, for the benefit or those who don't blog surf my links at the sidebar...


I seriously wonder wassup wif our government these days. THey seem to pick on small little things n kick a big fuss outta it.
First it was the white elephant hoo-ha over buangkok
Second was the charging of pple who download pirated music
And their recent target: BLOGS
Racist remarks, anti govt sentiments, even anti- teacher remarks can get students suspended? GOsh. How repressive can this get. We r unable to express our feelings anymore! And all these nonsense abt encouraging creativity in our sch system.. n when we try to be creative by expressing our sentiments thru un-instituionalised means we get punished.
Are they saying that the govt does not have strategies of dealing wif the difference races in their institutions? If RACISM is such a big concern, den y the effort to make RACE such a big issue by ethnisizing us? If they wan to encourage active feedback by the citizenry, y isit wrong to put up some harmless white elephant tags? And is badmouthing ur teacher any different from staff room gossips abt which student n who are the really "problematic" ones?
I suspect this is all a conspiracy to create moral panic.
Oh, n theres the mozzies. A follow up episode of our war against diseases- SARS PART 2.
Haha.

-Faith, Thursday, September 29, 2005

I totally agree with her viewpoints man! What's up with the govt!?!

New Things

Boo! Haha~ I'm back to blogging again. This is my 101th post! Didn't realised I've actually blogged so many entries over the past 4 months. It started from creating this NEW blog just to break away the depressing and sad blog that I used to have. The intention of this blog was supposed to provided entertainments a.k.a lame jokes or stuffs to the readers. But how badly it turned out to become a place for me to vent my frustrations, anger and bitch about people! (Yes! Guys bitch too!) Oh well~

Anyway, let's talk a bit about yesterday. Had handball trial yesterday. I was being asked to play as centre for my team. It's been a long time since I last played in that position, think the last time I played there was during the last KR open. Always had fun playing as centre, somehow I just love to provide beautiful (if I can say it) passes to my teammates and seeing them score. Not that I don't like to score, but I know my own strenghts and weaknesses and I think passing is maybe the only area I can contribute to the team. Having said that, I am still quite poor as a centre, I still lack certain visions and skills required for that position. However, there's one thing for sure, I am willing to try out this NEW responsibility as a team player.

Went for track trial too~ Had a 100m trial run with JR. Lost to him by 0.2 seconds, with him clocking a 12.6s. Although, I didn't have a very good timing but I had lots of fun! It's been a long time since I get to clock my sprints. Just in case you peepz don't know, I used to love sprinting a lot back in primary school days. Too bad my secondary school just s*cks in track and ddidn't have a proper coach, if not I would have continued this passion and became a not bad sprinter by now =P
Oh well, Ron promised me a 11.9s timing by next year. So here I am, in the track team (maybe a bit kelong), trying this re-NEWed passion of mine!

I was also whining to some of the Eguanas that my carebear was not doing anything. Haha~ And how fast the news spreaded to my careabear that she just gave me a box of bitter chocolate and an apologetic card to me this morning! Oh man, think she must be thinking "what's wrong with this babybear manz...complain and whine to ppl about me..." Haha~ I'm so sorry my dearest carebear! I didn't mean it that way! I was just jokingly whining!!! Haha~ Anyway THANKS for the bitter chocolates! I LOVE DARK CHOCOLATES! =)
Oh, just when you thought I am so into this game of "carebear & gummibear" I actually didn't do anything for my baby bear as well. Ironically, she was complaining about her gummibear yesterday too! Feeling bad for being a spoiler of the game, I came back and decided to do something NEW, "special" but ~duh~ for her. Hope she wouldn't mind the craziness.

Think I've slacked for two days without actually revising any of my school work, shall start again tonight after my rest now...feeling flu-ey and achy... I am getting old!!! Thankfully, I had a good lunch with jL and my buddy at ikea, did a little bit of shopping with jL too. Just love your company my dear, you never fail to make my day =)

Yawn~ Good nightz peepz. Napping time!

Responsibility

Responsibility. This very moral value guide my way of living. However, I am starting to think that maybe I shouldn't be that responsible. Hall life has taught me what to be responsiblie about.

Money is one thing that you got to be responsible of. I admit I did a bad job in ensuring the smooth and accurate payment of IHG shirts, hence I've finding ways to reduce the deficit, even up till now.

Duties. When duties are assigned to you, be disciplined and and carry it out. Even if you can't do a good job, the least you can do is to turn up for your duties. I am sick of how some people in hall can just shirk their reponsiblities in this area. As a result, others have to suffer for them. This is how the society will be next time. That's why sometimes if you think that Hall is a screwed up place, be warned: The outside world is harsher and more evil than Hall.

Studies. Somtimes, by being responsible in your assignements and work does not mean you would get a fair results. I did almost 90% of my tutorials last semester, but the end product? A below average results. I did and contributed more to some of the projects, the end product? Everybody shares the grade. Just like how Hall prepares you for society next time, education in NUS does too, teaches us to be smart and learn the tricks to score. For that, I am still learning.

Sports. Being responsible as a team player does not mean you will get a fair comment from others. Every players in the team have their own view. What you deem as a team play might just be perceieved as a selfish play. Movements that you think would help the team, might just get disapproved by others. However, what a player can be responsible about in sports is to play his own role well. If you are a athelete, be disciplined. Eat well, sleep well and rest well. If you are a team player, play your role well, contribute what you can to the team and not wanting the glory to yourself. Once you have performed your role well, the glory will come to you eventually.

Lastly, as a senior in Hall. I have to be more responsible in the things I said and blogged. You never know who would be reading this and overheard what you said. With that I apologised to whoever I have offended in my past entries. Maybe the parties involved would never find out, but ya, don't take anything in this blog too seriously, because italkingcock only ;)

Pot calling kettle black?

Wahaha...just saw a person's msn nick. "********, you SUCK big time yar? U are overflowing with self-centeredness u dun have to become more."

Wahaha...A sucker calling another person sucker? This is so funny and entertaining...What a way to spend my break time =)

Ok, Peace. =D

Pang Seh?

Waiting for my lunch at home before I head back to hall. Tried doing thermo tutorials but could only do 1.5 out of 4 questions, decided to go back to hall and refer to the text for examples or references. Just saw this entry from faith's blog...

"I cant be bothered wif pple who totally pang seh their frens after they get attached. Its super sian la! I mean.. yes I understand u wan time wif ur bf/gf… but still… sincerity n effort.. Haiz."

Think I am guilty of that...but I don't really pang seh friends...it's just that I've no time for so many ppl...oh well...it takes both hands to clap what...If I happen to neglect my friends and they feel so, they could just take the initiative? Like what sinlong always do and some of my other friends? Hmm..nvm...I can't please everybody...

Cocky

Just when I thought the morning is weird enough, my mum got to tell me that my auntie was telling grandma about how I got to greet her son "Sir" when he graduated from overseas.

KNN!

So what if your son is a f*cking S*FOS!?!? That does not mean you can brag about it at the expense of me! F***king CB. Let me tell you, I will never greet your son by that. No matter what I am his senior, so what he would one day become my superior? I have calculated, when the day comes, I would be out of the force! So F***king wake up your idea! Let me say this again, I will never ever greet him by that!

Pissed~

Superficial

Think I am a superbly superficial creature. I want to see results from whatever stuffs that I put in effort with. I want to have reciprocated efforts...I want everything to go my way.

Sounds more like MCP? Ya, I think I am one too...at least that's what Mich said of me before.

Oh well~ Kinda feel annoyed on this sunday morning...don't know why, maybe just one of those days. PMS? Ha~

"Weekends are for sleeping, rembr to sleep more peepz!" - yup that's my msn massage for the day. For I slept near 12 hours yesterday night! Wahaha~ sleep is shiok but bad for morning mind. Now I am feeling...weird. Watever~ Wanton Mee and Laksa making me feel pukish.

E-rratic yZ, having his mood swings again.~ Bah~!

Freak Mood

This is my mood!


Your mind is never at rest. You are continually striving to influence all those about you. You have some excellent ideas but you persist in trying to persuade others just how great your ideas really are. Maybe you are trying too hard. Take it easy - remember, 'Everything comes to those who wait'.
Being a somewhat gentle, emotional and sensitive person, you are at this time experiencing a considerable amount of tension. What you really need is someone who can be close to you and to listen to what you have to say.
The way things are at this time it is necessary to 'go slow'. All the pleasures that you have anticipated should be left in abeyance until some future date, but all is not lost, you are able to derive and achieve considerable gratification from someone quite close to you.
You are experiencing considerable stress which is essentially the result of on going rejection and hostility. You are in the unpleasant position where offers of trust, affection and understanding are being withheld and you are being treaded with a degrading lack of consideration. You feel that you are being denied the appreciation that you deserve, which is essential to your well-being and self-esteem, but you have to face up to the situation because as matters stand at this time there is little that you can do about it - you feel that you are getting nowhere and the continuous struggle is a lonely one: all difficulties and no encouragement. Whatever you try to say or do is met with continuous hostility and no matter how much you protest you are consistently misunderstood. You need to escape from the situation but you are so perplexed that you cannot find the strength of mind to make the necessary decision.
Matters are not all that they would appear to be and you are critical of the existing conditions which you feel are confused and disorganized. You are therefore looking for a modus operendi which will simplify the situation so that you will be able to see the 'trees in the woods'.

Just when you thought defeats are hard to accept. Huan Chao gotta msn msg me "yay".
F***king Childish!

Anyway...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANICE!!! HOPE YOU WILL HAVE A GREAT DAY AHEAD!!!!

Man DisUnited

I wonder why am I still supporting Manchester United... 4 consecutive F~up performances from them! Just when you thought last season was bad enough... I think I am just going to stay in Hall next weekend and study. Instead of wasting my precious time watching them play and get annoyed, I might as well spend more time studying and accompany jL.

Freak~

Period.

u(1), u(2), u(3), u(4)?

Arggg...am I u(1), u(2), u(3) or u(4)? haha...Tmd Hantu...come up with his best entry yet...really "best" entry!!! Now we are guessing who is who. Yucks~

Arg...

Felt so helpless and useless...can't even be of any help...

Sighz...

I am sorry...

Night Out - Farewell

Just had another great day with jL, with her driving me around places! Went to Tiong Bahru Market for lunch and shopped for her Appreciation Dinner Clothings at TB Plaza. She got this really sexy looking dress and skirt-cum-tube, total cost - $68 I think, which is not too expensive for a nice set of dress.

Came back to hall for dinner then set off to airport with WilZ. Huge congestion at AYE and entering ECP area. Must say jL handled the huge cefiro well, especially so when she's just a one month old driver, correction one month one day old. =P

Xunz was in tears as she entered the departure hall. Can understand how she feels, seeing so many of her friends and relatives come to send her off, plus the fact that she's not going to see them for at least half a year are sad enough to leave this place. But well, all the best to ya, Ron's cousin! Ha~ Doubt she would see this anyway. Oh well...Was sort of jealous by the crowd which came to see her off. I wonder if I would have half of that crowd if I were to leaeve for studies or whatever... ;)

Headed to Changi Village for supper. Chicken cutlet noodles and Red Tea LongAn is DA BOMB! We didn't stay for long, went off at around 10 plus, thus weren't able to catch any glimpse of the "hunters" or rather the "preys" there. Watever~

The journey back to hall left only me and jL as WilZ decided to go over to Ron's car. They actually taunted jL that she drives very slow and they would reached back hall first, bathed before we would return. Haha~ But how wrong they were, as jL reached just a few minutes after them only. Wahaha~ Must say I am so proud of my Baby, jL! She's not a typical female driver understand! Maybe a better driver than me =P But still I am holding a manual license. Bleah~

Alright, enough of fun for today. Shall get back to some work. BTW, continue commenting peepz!Although it's going to be a bit more troublesome to comment from now onwards, as I have set the word verification thing in order to avoid the spamming comments all over my blog right now. Till the next entry!

Oh...something lame? Saw this advert in the airport...DBS Card...something like we can let you travel from Holland Village to Holland...

So...I came out with...without the card, we can let you travel from Changi Village to Changi?

Ok...stop having cold sweats~ E'nuff~

P/s: Sorry for irritating you so much while you drive. You are really a good driver if not a superb one! :) Cheer up k~!

Physical over Emotional?

Ok, I really can't get into the mood of studying. Was just reading through WilZ blog...only one {word} sentence (thanks WilZ)...I understand how you feel bro...

Then I read through that blog on Chemistry by faith again. Had a few thoughts on this particular statement...

"yeah I know its sad but I think tts wat happens smtimes.. tts emotional chemistry without physical chemistry..Well I think sometimes, one can lead to the other, but I personally feel that its always better to have the latter lead to the first. =P"

I think if the latter were to lead to the first...then wouldn't it be lust to start of with in the first place? Haa~ Comments ppl? Hantu?

NUS Song

Think not many knows that there's a NUS School Song... Here's the lyrics...

NUS Forever

Through our friendships forged
From our treasure store
Of bright golden days of old;
The minds that spurred us to greater heights
And the hearts that made us bold.
The distant shores before us rise
The world awaits our enterprise
For we¹re sons and daughters all
Set forth from Alma Mater¹s Halls.

In the years to come
We will draw new strength
From past golden days recalled.
And set our faces toward the light
Of the challenges in store.
Our dauntless hearts will we unite
To seek the good with all our might
Bringing honor to the fore
To NUS forever more.

p/s: Thanks jL, for preparing hotdogs bread for me! Oh ya, your driving skill is good =)
At least you make me feel comfortable as a passenger.

Crazy Blogger - Self entertaining Morning

Officially - I've gone crazy blogging. Only slept for two hours and got woken up by the cold morning. Went down to pack breakfast for myself and the two piggy neighbours. One simply refused to wake up for 8am class. The other, slept at don't know what time the previous night (morning), whom had supper at 4am and BOJIO me!

Alright, just done with the oily breakfast...gonna wait for my milo to cool down a bit and maybe wait for jL to come back from bringing her siblings to school. Yes! She's driving back! Haha~ She must be damn excited right now...driving around.

Time for some lame stuffs again? I guess so... enjoy peepz~

Harry did like he always does, kissing his wife, crawling into bed and falling to sleep. All of a sudden, he wakes up with an elderly man dressed in a coat standing in front of his bed."What the hell are you doing in my bedroom?......and who are you?" he asked."This is not your bedroom," the man replied, "I am St. Peter, and you are in heaven.""WHAT!?? Are you saying I'm dead? I don't want to die.....I'm too young." said Harry. "If I'm dead, I want you to send me back immediately." "It's not that easy", said St.Peter, "you can only return as a dog or a hen. You can choose on your own..." Harry thought about it for a while, and figured out that being a dog is too tiring, but a hen probably has a nice and relaxed life. Running around with a rooster can't be that bad."I want to return as a hen." Harry replied. And in the next second, he found himself in a chicken run, really nicely feathered. But man, now "he" felt like the rear end was gonna blow........then along came the rooster. "Hey, you must be the new hen on the farm." he said. "How does it feel?""Well, it's OK I guess, but it feels like my rear end is blowing up." "Oh that!" said the rooster. "That's only the ovulation going on. Have you never laid an egg before??" "No, how do I do that?" Harry asked. "Cluck twice, and then you push all you can." Harry clucked twice, and pushed more than he was good for, and then 'Plop' and an egg was on the ground."Wow" Harry said "that felt really good!" So he clucked again and squeezed. And you better believe that there was yet another egg on the ground. The third time he clucked, he heard his wife shout: "Harry, for Gods sake wake up, you're shitting all over the bed!"

My throat is killing me...not sore but painful...arg~ What's wrong manz...

p/s: Btw wilz, must clarify in your blog leh, later ppl misunderstood about me =P

To Hantu...

I think I know the "one". From my analysis and observations and of course some gut feel, my guess should be 90% correct. But of course, I will not reveal or ask to confirm who the girl is. I I shall respect your decision and wait for you to tell me. In the meantime, happy commenting ;) Cheers~

blogforwat

Diu~ Just re-did my lab report and now I am still stuck at my fluids tutorial. Shall attempt it after I slack. Just realised wil has a blog! For the link? Refer to my current blog title and infer yourself.


Lab report Cover! Diu~



We just look good lah! Bleah~

Wahaha...Simply crazily in love~

Chemistry

Taking a break from tutorials and webcasting...thought I might as well paste what my friend blogged. Thanks faith for the interesting insight! Although I don't think you know I've a blog. Ha~

Here goes...

THEORY OF THE ELUSIVE CHEMISTRY
1) Physical

Physical chemistry happens when somebody touches u ( nt in the lusty way, YET), and u juz feel comfortable wif that body contact. Contrary to popular belief, physical chemistry does nt happen when u feel electrified by the person’s touch. Let me explain.. u know how smtimes u juz feel weird when a person of the opposite sex touches u innocently but u juz feel all weird? Like example… pulling the side of ur arm when crossing the road.. hitting u gentlely on the lap when u told a joke tts funny.. stuff lidat.. n then immediately inside ur head u go,” Wat the hell? Why did he TOUCH me?” Yes.. tts an example of INCHEMISTRY (ok I juz invented tt term =P) So flip the example the other way n u get chemistry.. have u ever wondered, y 2 persons of the opp sex can have body contact wif u the same way n u juz feel like its ok wif 1 and u fliched at the slightest contact wif the other? Its smthing tts hard to explain but then yeah, I hope u get wat I mean. And I think, without bodily chemistry its kinda hard to imagine urself being close wif the other on a more emotional level…

2) Emotional Chemistry
Emotional chemistry is where 2 person can sort of connect on the same level n I believe smtimes it almost makes u feel spiritual.. Its like u feel like u have known this person for years even tho it might be one mth and feel that theres this really deep connection btw the 2 of u n u can juz reveal ur trueself to the other person without fearing abt ur vulnerability..

And u guys know wat? I think the 2 are independent of each other. Let me give u scenarios to illustrate wat I mean.. Physical chemistry occurs when u can actually get close on an intimate level without feeling anyting for the other person.. actually personally I cant see that happening to myself.. coz I think its unless im super high on drugs or alcohol or else I cant picture doing anything intimate without having feelings involved. Arh.. a perfect example is a 1 night stand I guess? And I think for this type of chemistry guys are much more capable. =P

And smtimes u can have emotional chemistry without physical chemistry.. This is a bit more tricky.. in the sense say… u have this really reallyu close fren of the opposite gender.. u feel that u can confide in him/her abt everything.. bitch abt ur ex, abt ur boss, act silly after ur drunk n whatever n nt feel like u cant face him/her the next day.. yet, u cannot picture urself tog as a couple.. no matter how u feel that u guys are perfect in compatibility.. yeah I know its sad but I think tts wat happens smtimes.. tts emotional chemistry without physical chemistry..
Well I think sometimes, one can lead to the other, but I personally feel that its always better to have the latter lead to the first. =P

So peepz, have you all found the chemistry with anybody yet? If not, please don't get too horny and anyhow get one!

5 days Mid-term Break!

WooHoo~ Instead of the usual 4 days mid-term break. I have 5! ME rules!!!

From IVLE:

No Lecture and no tutorial tomorrow

Dear All,
This is to clarify my previous email and to confirm that there will be no lecture and no tutorial tomorrow.
Happy Break!
DR. Yu
Posted by YU HAOYONG, 22/09/2005 1:58 PM.

No class and Tutorial this Friday

Dear All,
Please be reminded that , acoording to our class schedule, there will be no class and Tutorial this Friday.
Regards
Dr. Yu
Posted by YU HAOYONG, 22/09/2005 8:58 AM.

Commitment

Commitment? What does the word commitment means to young couples nowadays? Hantu posted the question to a few of us yesterday, “if you are attached, will you still open yourself to other possibilities?” I’m quite glad that not many of us gave him the answer that he was looking for. He was a pro “survival of the fittest” lover. He believes in whoever can make the girl happy deserves the girl, regardless of who knows the girl first or whatever you call commitment. So is it a good thing or not? I don’t know. I wouldn’t say it’s wrong of him to think that way, but it’s just not my “school of thought”.

While having said that, there are people around who actually do such things. That is opening to possibilities while being attached. I’ve seen it first hand, and I guess that person is just going to continue to do it and do it till he/she’s happy with his/her life.

Enough said about that.

I still think one need to be committed in his/her relationship. If not what’s the point of getting into one? Like what jL mentioned, why waste the time of looking for the perfect one when you can work on and strengthen your current relationship?

I personally think that, sometimes your other half is just like your siblings or parents. Even if they have their flaws, they are still someone you love before or will love in the future; you don’t just give up on that person just because you have found someone you are happy with at that particular moment? Just like you don’t find a good god-father and dumb your father? Having said that, I am not encouraging one to stick to their unhappy relationship if things can’t be resolved after many times of salvaging. When it’s time to let go, it’s time to let go.

It’s just like falling out of a relationship. There’s really not much point in dwelling over what could be done and what shouldn’t. For a simple fact, what’s done is done and cannot be undone! So move on with life, there will definitely someone out there waiting for you or for you to know him/her better. When the time comes, please be committed and work on the relationship…no more hopping around…

I miss jL…although it’s just half an hour of absence…bleah~

Microsoft Blog

Boo~ Trying out blogging using Microsoft words. I’m supposed to be sleeping now, but guess I shall just spend a few minutes trying out this new thing for blogging. Ok, I am going to blog in comic sans font, see if it works…

Yes hantu, blog about controversies? Hm…really can’t think of any at the moment. But ya, just to share what I told Ken earlier, E-seniors, please do not shoulder all the blames if you think our juniors are not united or having fun enough in E block. Like all relationships, it takes both “hands” to clap ya. Alright…think I should go to bed now, if not jL is going to scold me =P. Tomorrow will be another day of mugging… Arg…    

Four conditions led up to a couple "first big right"

four conditions that led up to a couple
"first big fight"

1.uncertainty over commitment
2.jealousy
3.violation of expectation
4.personality diferences

(the interpersonal communication book - Devito)

Love Curve

my love curve - drawn by sinlong!

Evolution in a Week.

Last week on MSN:

jUnLi. says:
"i miss the yaozong i first met "

"the boy that made me love him more with everything he did "

This week on MSN:
jUnLi. says:
"baby..you're really making me love you more n more now..mwack! "

"it's the way you behave nowadays...i can feel that you really really love me even without you saying it "

"just feel different...you're back to being playful and smiley"

Yeah~ EvolveD =) Happy Boy!

Quality Time.

Spent good three days not studying much. But no regrets at all. Coz the full three days were spent with jL and friends. Had a wonderful Thursday night at Hall Bash, witnessing jL showing off her moves and seductive poses. WooHoo~ "Your girlfriend is very pretty" "Your girlfriend dances very well" "jL confirm will win the Bling Bling" are just some of the comments I get from the crowd. Wahaha...pays to be the boyfriend of a babe ya. Heh.

Still super infautuated by jL. Ok, gotta stop my craziness here, if not I am gonna get disturbed by people again =D

Witnessed quite a few people got drunk and did some cranky stuffs during the Hall Bash. I can understand and relate how and why they did those things. Just hope that they would be awakened by the bad experience of doing silly things and come out stronger than before. And ya, no point regretting what you have done anymore k. Just move on and never look back anymore. TRY LA! I know it's hard =)

Nua for the whole of Friday morning and afternoon then went out for KTV with jL, Jie-ge, small CiHong, Elephant and Line. 4 hours of KTV really made me lose my voice. Not because I sang a lot. It's because I was shouting and KaoPehing all the way. Ha~ Had lots fun and again really impressed with how well (understatement) jL can sing!!!

I really got to learn to be more cultural, like what JM told me. If not how am I going to impress my girl? Hmm...

Again...Slept for like a damn long time this morning...till like 2pm then I decided to get out of my bed. Had a good lunch with jL at Ginza. Wanted to ask jL over to my place for dinner but her sis is going to be home alone tonight so I guess it's better for her to go home and keep her compay. In anycase, PSLE is in 18 days time?

JIAYOU XUELI!

Alright, think dinner is starting soon...shall blog again when I have the time. Got to get down to some studying and serious catching up.

Just read Yow's blog...really envious of his experiences over there...would I have the chance to go for exchange as well?

Wasted Effort...

Arg...just spent half an hour putting up pictures in my blog...but ended with a website server crash...Kns...Sian tiao...

Freak Blogspot...Argggggg

Updated: Ok, new pictures are added to my photolog...feel free to go have a look~Cheers!

Ms Bling Bling!!! (updated)

My Girlfriend, Baby Wu Junli is officially

KR Ms BLING BLING!!!

Well Done my Dear! You are forever YZ's Bling Bling! LOVE YA!!!

Watch out this space for photos! =)

Updated!

MsBling Bling's winning pose...less the male partner...=P

Careful with words

Think with the links from tootall, ken and yow's blog, my blog is being visited by more and more hall people. Guess I've to watch out my words...but then again...this is my blog...why should I bother? If they are offeded by my blog, that's too bad for them. Coz I think they wouldn't feature in my blog if they didn't do anything that offended me or my friends in the first place. Anyway, I've been reserving my views on HER for a long time, so be glad that YOU just featured in my blog only. =)

Yay~ BLING BLING~ Going down to support my Baby! Woohoo~

Block issues 1

Hmm..how do I start. Don't think I should be blogging about the things which I am going to write but ah heck.

* player was telling me that during captain election meeting, some monster made a remark regarding the return of Capt Jie. "Why is he even back? He didn't contribute anything to hall..." that's roughly what she asked * player. So now comes the question, why can't he be back!? Does she knows that Capt Jie was one of the pioneers who set up the KR website!? Does she knows that Capt Jie was the Basketball IHG vice-capt last year and did a fantastic job in assisting the captain? Does she knows that he actually completed and handed over his duties properly before he left the hall during sem 2? Does she knows that he played his heart out for KR before he left also!? So...What the f does she wants us to justify his return? In any case, it is master's decision to take him back. Who is she to question this issue!?

Then came the captain selection. "I can't be the captain, because I will not be able to play well if I become one." Personal reason? Selfish? So by pushing the role to someone else, she will be able to play better? We shall see...

So now, my turn to ask her..."Why are you even still using THE nick?"

Enough.

Elephant was telling me he's getting tired of being the head. I was shocked but somehow understand why. He told me that some of the girls are not happy about the decision to wear common attire for the bash. Well, I gave him my frank opinion. Several reasons could be playing a part in this unhappiness...

1) These people paid money to attend this bash, they want to have fun and they want to look good. By asking them to conform to a standard attire...I don't think they would be too happy about it.
2) The manner Elephant told them about the rational in having a theme wear. "We want to win best dress block..." Even as a winner like me...was a bit turned off by that statement. I mean IBG is just behind our back and just when you thought the year1s are not turned off by what we seniors have been telling them about every single matches...now they are hearing it again. Yes...the word "WIN".

So come to the issue of "Is winning everything to E blockers?" I'm afraid the answer is yes and no. By being a sports block, Eguanas are cultivated to have that fighting and winning spirit inside us. I still remember my OG attached B block seniors were asking me last year when I was still a freshie, " Are you stressed to be inside E block? Like always about winning IBG?" My answer was straight and fast NO. Reason given was simple, winning is primary to me for any competitive sports, if not it's not called competitive anymore. Give me a friendly match and you will see me playing at a leisure manner.

So why are the Baby Eguanas feeling the strain this year? I guess it's a failure on our part as seniors of E block. We are too used to winning, the only sad moment I remember last year was Bball final when we lost out to B. Then, DM was there to comfort us and smooth talk us even though he was sad himself. This year, I think most seniors including me didn't do a good job in assuring the Babies that IBG is just IBG, what's more it's ICBG only this year. That it doesn't matter if we lost this match or that match, ultimately we had fun and we played well. It's this failure I think that made the Babies felt so stressed up and pressured and even turned off to be in E block for IBG. Having said that, there are a group of Baby Eguanas who came out stronger and felt stronger for E block. I dare to say this group of people will be the very same group to inspire the next batch of Babies on the courts and field come next year IBG. Yes, I want IBG! No more ICBG crap thingy. Ok, that's beside the point. I've realised some things better from this year's IBG myself too. Yes. The most basic lesson, IBG is just IBG. E block is not defined by winning IBG for the number of times. We are defined by being able to retain the sports talents in KR and bond them together as a team of sportsmen. A sports block is important, like what Tootall told us. Without a common place, the sportsmen will never be able to relate themselves with their closest neighbours. Imagine your neighbours are all cultural or committee people and when you want to talk tactics or ask them down for a game or two, they were totally off about it. Soon, you will get sick of staying in that block and eventually Hall. So come on Elephant, come on Eguanas, let's show the people what's sports block and we are more than just being a sports block but a family block.

Just my 2 cents worth of thoughts...

Give and Take

Been quite a while since I last blogged. Went through quite a bit of events over the past few days. I'm glad that some of them are finally settled or halfway through.

Had a long talk with jL ever since and am glad that there are still plenty of feelings between us. Being able to tolerate my nonsenses and continue love me is something not many girls can do, but Baby, you did it to perfection. Must say I was at an all time low just a few days ago, but was able to pick myself up and talked it out with her. Just glad things are normal as before and I feel like a newly attached boy now! Haa~ Simply infatuated with you. Especially so when friends around me are giving up on their relationships...thanks baby for willing to talk things out and make us grow stronger together.

JCRC... They've managed to find the 7th man. Somone from the RAG team, someone who has always wanted to run but somehow lack the courage to. Teckie managed to persuade him committing into it. Relieved? Yes, defintely. I admit I am tempted to run, but I am more worried about my studies and my relationship with jL. I know myself best. At this moment and phase of my life, I am not ready to multi-task so many things. My capacity is no longer as per past achievements, I simply can't handle my studies that well anymore, worse still my tempers are getting out of control again. Not the right candidate with the right frame of mind. Teckie tried to persuade jL, who has told me she's not interested anymore...but somehow I feel that she's still quite tempted over the post. Well, shall wait for her decision and the outcome.

Recently there's a stigma against one group of people in my block. One of them likes to blast her songs, even after receiveing several complaints and warnings. The group of them also developed a habit of not clearing up their mess after using the kitchen. All these result in several reminders given to them by our dearest block comm members. Hantu stated his observation and feel of the whole issue. He thought that we were being too critical to that group of people and would create misunderstandings and tension within the block. Feeling what the block comm did was right, I defended their actions. So come a few questions, "Are we going tolerate the minority's behaviour at the expense of the majority's comfort? Are we going to help to clear up things or cover up things that are not caused by us? Are we going to be bullied by the so called minority group?"
I'm afraid my answer to all the questions are NO. A big fat NO. No matter what the precessors have done to create a friendly environment in my block, I am for fairness and impartiality. Not that we are bias or discriminating, I would say the block comm would do the same thing to other groups if they were to do the same sort of things. If they don't, I would personally see to it. Case close.

Anyway, I just realised that it's been a long long looooong time since I posted anything lame...

Shall refer our readers to my friend's blog page - http://www.bigmouthwu.blogspot.com/
Listen out to the background playing sound clip!!! Wahaha~

At the end of the day...we just got to give and take in life.

Lonely Night...

Restless in the room...
Staring outside the toilet...
Swinging at the rooftop...
Staring at the screen...
No conclusion...

Moving On

Had a superb night. Policeman and DM came back to lecture the cadets, with the aids of beer and delicious supper, courtesy of Ron's birthday treat :)

Talked lots cock, had lots fun. Good old times on the 6th floor, maybe without the presence of Kendrick, Keith and Wenguang. Really miss those times. Discussed about IBG, yes the damn thing that made me go ups and downs and almost lost my relationship. Guess we just have to move on.

"Come back stronger next year and win it back" - DM.

Well said. That's more fun isn't it. But well, it's always sour to lose it at your turn. But ya we have to move on. I think I've made lots bad comments and actions and set lots bad examples to the year 1s, but again I can't get worried too much. At the end of the day, I can''t change how people judge and see things. All of us see things differently, some are better judge than others, while others just keep their opinions. What's past is the past, I'm wrong to bring the past year's IBG to haunt this year's. But who don't? Which block doesn't? I'm afraid the name of E block being the aggresive block is to stay and I think I am understanding what DM said to me last year. We are like Manchester United during their winning days. (Yay, Derby tml!) So I guess we just got to see if any of such remarks happen again next year. Maybe I won't be around? Ha~

There are so many things that I did on impulse and regretted later. But would I change? Hard I would say. And when you regret? Just got to move on...

Just glad there are friends who understand me and encourages me. Friends who never gave up on me even when I've no more faith in myself. Thanks Jie ge for believeing in my shooting once again. Sometimes, when I repeat a thing for many times, it's because finally there's something I am happy about of myself. But to others, I seem like bragging.

"yoz, most likely not enough, will confirm tomorrow b4 noon. tomorrow's nomination day so nd to get forms and fill n submit by then as well. "

So the situation is set now...studies first or friends?

I have still find the answer in myself. Just Bo chup and move on?

Avoidance is Gold?

Avoidance is Gold? Maybe I should just avoid everything. Stop being a busybody and really be a bochup person. Stop dwelling on the pasts and talking about it. Life goes on. Memories stay. Feelings are unknown if you avoid it... Maybe I would never know the true feelings...

There seem to be something stopping from the free flow of speech now. Guess I know why...I brought upon it myself. Is this healthy? I don't know...It seems so difficult for the both parties...

Issues...

Think I am really money face...I've spent like $100 in two days. Haha...how did I do it? I've no idea too. Guess the stardard of living in Singapore is really getting too high. Merely a day out would cost you around $50 and that does not mean going to high class restaurants for meals. Arg...at the rate that I am spending...I don't think my allowance can last me through out the year!

A friend called up yesterday. He was my downline when we were still in this MLM thingy. He told me his dad is in need of money due to some cash flow problem. Amount? $4000. Of course I told him I couldn't lend him that much. Then he asked how much I was comfortable in lending him. Well... stupid me actually answered his question -> $100-$200. After a while, he messaged back to accept the so called "offer" that I put to him. Yes...that put me right in a dillema. On one hand, I felt obliged to help him as he was once my downline and I sort of didn't really help him succeed in that MLM thingy and caused him to spend quite a bit of money. On the other, I know that it's hard to get back your money once you lend to someone else. I've experienced that many many times. Furthermore, this time round, the situation seems so bad that I doubt I would even get back the money. With much deliberation, discussion and struggles with myself, junli and sinlong, I finally messaged my friend and told him to take my offer as the really last resort...perhaps a nicer way to reject him?

Well well...I really think that I am not financially capable of going on exchange on my own account...guess I can't really be that financially independant after all...Do I really have to ask from my Bro? Haiz...I really don't want to...or maybe I should just give exchange a miss. It would be good for everyone also...

Been so troubled with so many bloody stuffs. From studies to money issues then to jcrc? I'm glad that my relationship is nice and steady after the big storm. But now I'm faced with new issues? Maybe I am taking things to hard...but how to when things are not going the way it should be? Studies...lagging behind even though I've tried to study at every free time. Money just seem to reduce at such alarming speed. Jcrc issues just keep coming back to haunt me...

Arg...

Accept the fact?

~accept the fact that you're not good. do somethin bout it. n get on with life~

Hmm...referring to me?

Anyway, readers of my blog! Please vote for my Baby~Yes! jUnLi!!! As well as my bro, teck yong! For the Ms & Mr KR Bling Bling!!!

Thank you thank you thank you!!!

Baby...

For me, you have chosen the path. I am really sorry that I didn't give you any support needed. I know you are filled with regrets. So do I. I regretted for not stepping up and I regret big time for requesting you not to...

I know you have been sacrificing a lot for me. I know I have been really demanding and erratic. It must be tough loving me. Enduring my tempers, mood swings and jealousy. To top it up, I stopped you from doing something you wanted.

Maybe I don't know how to love a person. Never been able to make the girl I love truly happy. I am sorry to be in your life, but I will never give up trying to be better just for you. Yes, it will take a long time and maybe never would I become a better person. But I will try, simply for the fact that I care about you. I really don't know what to say to you now but a big thank you...and an even bigger SORRY. Yes, it will never be enough to erase the regrets you have right now but please let me apologise for being demanding and selfish.

I know you have faith in me and that's all I need to know. I will not want to prove to any other people anymore. Not at the expense of our relationship. I've made enough mistakes during IBG, I've hurt you feelings enough. I know I can't handle situations well, I do not want to put myself and especially you into that kind of tortures anymore.

Baby, I am really thankful to have you...
KR, I have made up my mind...

Great Night!

What an evening! After a week of tears and struggles, I've finally been able to have a happy and really superb evening. Baby (yes, I am calling jL by that again!) came back with two muffins made by her!!!

Things were still bleak in the day, cancelled the initial plan of going chinatown to get QY his favourite pineapple biscuits. Baby then decided to go home, which even though I miss her presence I couldn't stop her from. Spent the whole afternoon alone in my room trying to study. Then came her sms which prompted a series of sms exchanges between us. Things became better as she sent her 920th sms to me but still I was in a sianz mode. Vball was cancelled, had dinner together with the rest of the block. Talked for almost 2 hours after dinner with Christian Teo, Ron, Wilson and Janice. Really had a great time talking "cocks" (not pussies) with them. Went back to my room, trying to repair my VPN thingy with the help of C.T and was surprised by Baby's surprise return to hall. YES! With her two yummy muffins and a nice T shirt that she bought for me =) . Althought it's a little bit too tight fit for a skinny bone like me, but I still it, simply because it's from her and the material feels nice. THANK YOU BABY!

Went down to listen out to Ben's presidential rally. Must say it's quite a BOMB. Not that it's fantastic BOMB, more of the BOMBs that Ben received from the audience. Hah~ Well, I guess like what tootall said, Ben will still get the nod even though it was thought that he didn't really answer some of the questions well. The aftermath? All of them gathered in my room, talking lots politics, issues, craps, gossips, rubbishs till we got too hungry and headed off to West Coast Mac for STUDENT HVMeals!!!

What a night, what a night. A night to be miss. A night to cherish. Coz it's the night where I see and feel my friends in jolly mood. Coz it's the night which Baby has forgiven me. Coz it's the night
that I didn't study! Haha~

Oh ya! Baby, the muffins were really YUMMY! And did I forgot to mention that she helped me to resolve my VPN thingy!? What a gf I have got myself =)

Hmm...Bling Bling is making me having mixed feelings...=P (ignore~ I'm a happy boy)

P/s: Thanks tootall for quoting me in your blog ... haha... felt somehow honoured =)

Rebuilding...

Tonight marks the end of this year's IBG for me. Somehow, all the sports I played in this year were lost(except one basketball semi-final). Maybe it's me or maybe I brought bad luck to the team. Yes, I am saddened by the dismay performance by the E block guys this year. Yes, I lost myself, lost my tempers all over the place. I have lost some respect from people. I have lost someone's faith...

It's time to rebuild...it's going to take a long process.
I hope there will be right people making the crucial decisions for E block.
I hope I can make her happy again.

Rebuilding...for confidence, love, respect.